March Dream Madness

March has been an insane month for me especially in the dream realm. I have been having terrifying nightmares that have resulted in me bolting upright in my bed, sweating profusely, shaking, and touching my cheeks to discover the salty residue of tears streaking my face. These nightmares have been so awful that once I burst awake I cannot fall back to sleep without several hours of gentle coaxing. The reason being is I have been analyzing and interpretting my dreams for many years now and these nightmares have alerted the premonition of impending doom: murder. These perilous slumbers keep telling me that I will be murdered soon, but I want to look the other way and interpret them differently. Perhaps all the changes I experienced lately introduce a sort of death of a phase of my life that I didn't sign up for, not life surrendering to death.

At the close of February 2009 I suffered a broken heart, got laid off of my job of three years, and put in my 30-day Notice to end my rental agreement at the first apartment I did not have to share with roommates. Three blows back to back and I couldn't help but think that my apartment number was three and I was moving into the third month of 2009.

Now March 2009 is winding to a close and I am typing this at my parent's house in the room I was born in when my mother was 30 years old and now I am 30 years old. I have moved back home to repair and regain my stabilty. I still have some more moving to do, but the room is already becoming "me" again in three different woods no less. Here I hope to shake hands with my creative spirit again and become an entrepreneurial leader creating a healthier life for all.